I HATE YOU! 

i never thought i could hate anyone as much as i fucken hate you..!!

i hate you!! i hate you!! i hate you!!!!

i hate how you put everything but me first..

i hate your stupid church,

i hate your god!

i hate you

why the fuck do you think i hate church,

why the fuck do you think i did drugs ?

why the fuck do you think i turned out this way ?

cuz you have always neglected me.

you never loved me..

i did everything that was bad cuz i needed to forget how i feel when im around you!! i hate you i hate you!! gahhh

IM ATHEIST! i dont believe in god!

why?  cuz even he has abandoned me!! he cares less what i ask for ive tried so hard to believe but i guess its just no enough cuz ive only asked for 2 things all my life and outta those two none of them came true!!

i hate you mom!

i hate your church  & church people…

IDGF anymore about all this… 

sometimes i think its best if i just die..

im tiered, im stressed, im depressed, i have so much anger inside.. 

I HATE YOU MOM! i dont think i should even be calling you that since u dont give a fuck about me ): I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!

and idgaf! what everyone has to say!! leave your fucken comments about how i should love her i care less!

I feel numb, weak and shaky
I never thought id be back here in this area….
I cant be here I dont wanna see him.
Let alone see him with her..
Im shaking waiting for the bus
I just wanna get out of here..
I just wanna run.
Im doing thos all for the people I care for…
This was the only fastea way to get there..
I just pray I don’t see him or let alone I pray he doesn’t see me here..
Im shaking
I feel like inside im breaking
Memories resurfacing
Im dying a little inaide knowing ur not mine and knowing u will never be mine :/
I still miss u
Till this day ur still the love of my life
I miss you sooo much
I need you here with me :/
I still remember the day we met..3/8/09 was the day I found my one true love :/
I miss you & I will forever love you

Getting my collarbone tattooed and getting My vertical chest pierced (; hopefully all this shall be done and healed b4 summer (; yayy

I still think about you every single day..
do you still think about me? I love you sooo much
All ive done for you I guess just wasn’t enough
I miss your voice
I miss your touch
and I guess telling you that I loved you just wasnt enough.
I still remember the day we met and the day you left :/
Those days are played back in my head like a broken record I wish I just had you one last day.
just one is all I ask for..
I wish I could just let you go.. But I love u too much to give up just like that w.out a fight :/